TAKE A LOOK AROUND

Sitting in the sala looking across the room, the piano remains untouched and unmoved. Then as I take a step to have a closer look, I see dust covering its body and the strings are all rusty and old… Just like myself, as years pass I grew older and older each day but some things change. I used to be a sentimental person when I was still playing that thing, I used to be a girl who’s desperate to die coz I thought dying was the only solution to all my problems. I thought I was born in this world accidentally and my existence was just a mistake but as I stopped playing that instrument it was like the beginning of a new me. The me who’s trying to be a person who can move on and live a life with happiness despite of all the unfortunate events that’s happening in my life. Until now even when sometimes I felt like I’m carrying the world in my shoulders I still try to look at the bright side of life even at times where I am telling myself already that I wanna die or vanish like a mist in the wind.. I just let out the words that I want to say to make me feel better or sometimes scream in a place where there are no people around to let out what’s weighing my heart down. Then after that I stop, take a look around, pause and think…

I’m not the unluckiest person in the world, although sometimes I do feel that way, still I’m so blessed. What makes me think I’m so blessed? I take a look around and I see people who are more unfortunate than me.

I see beggars begging for money or this special children who are deprive by a normal body the moment they were born and even just by listening to the radio like DXDZ whatever, you can hear this people begging for help because of their health problems…

and then I’ll begin thinking that even when I’m suffering I’m still blessed coz God hasn’t deprived me of everything yet, I can still eat whenever I want to, take a bath and walk with my two feet.

And the pain that he has given me is just for me to see the people around me who are more in need than me. Maybe someday if I’ll be given a chance to be more blessed, those blessings will be shared to those people.