In your arms…. Slumbered the night away... How far will you Write???

Lying in your arms, feeling you here with me doesn't really felt like you existed beside me.. it doesn't feel wrong and at the same time it doesn't feel right.. don't really know what I should feel, but one thing is certain, what I feel is gone now.. that excitement knowing ill see you and be with you is gone.. don't know if you feel the same, but there's no real thing to this.. guess love don't grew for me whenever this thing happens.. I'll leave.. just like what I used to do whenever this happens.. leave like nothing happened.. No goodbyes and No hellos… after this just leaving without saying anything.. there's nothing wrong with you.. this is just me always leaving just like the me before, the me that No one can own because I don't hold on.. I don't hold on to that.. that doesn't make me hold on…

I'm with you.. I chose that time to be with you but still I felt disappointed, it's like something is missing, but I do like you.. it's just that I'm not really sure with what I want.. or maybe I'm just looking for someone who will say NO.. guess I'm just not like the usual girls who holds on to things like this.. say NO to me but still make me feel you CARE then my feelings will grow for you.. but make me feel you want me like that then it will die and fade away..

..LOVE.. what is LOVE??.. it's so easy to spend time with anyone then they'll think your inlove with them.. but LOVE.. LOVE doesn't grew that easily in my heart, but that doesn't mean I have a heart of stone, it's just that in my mind.. Things like that will not make me love you because it makes me go away or eventually fades my feelings away if I'm already into you.. I like you and I like thinking that you like me too, but there's No LOVE to that..  It's just "Like".. and it just felt like everything is easy.. so fast.. and Love doesn't sprung in my heart that fast…

If it's like this.. I don't want it..

Both in slumber yet together are thoughts are far away from each other.. LOVE.. It doesn't grew like this.. It wont.. If it will?? I can't call it LOVE, neither do you if LOVE is special for You.. LOVE is not that easy to accomplish, not from me and also for you if you want me to love You..  Lets start from the beginning, the beginning where it's not yet stained by this.. I don't want it to sprung from stuff like this..

.…Relationships… there will be None if it's just because of this.. I don't want it.. Nothing happened.. From a deep slumber we were awaken to reality that the night is over and everything is over, just like the light uncovers the dark that surrounds at night… No Expectations.. No Worries.. Were not like that.. Nothing happened…

Let LOVE sprung first before that, then that will feel special like a Dream made real that lasts for more than a day or even a year..